I was searching my old photo album (I cannot believe my blog still kept the history of photos I posted here which I had deleted) and I found a picture of my cousin back in 2006. P

He has been one of my favourite cousin. I remembered teaching him English spelling which he scored 100% in exams and he eagerly came back to inform me with the good news. I felt so proud of him that time. He was so innocent, so cute and so charming that I also learnt a lot of lessons from this kid.

I saw his singing choir videos when he was graduating from his kindergarten school. Then, I saw him entering into his first primary school and subsequently proceed to a top notch secondary school in the state.

He excelled in his study very well which I was quite admired of his characteristic and self-discipline. I knew he will develop into a fine young man in the future.

He is 18 years old now.

And my cousin is sick.

He is in urgent of kidney transplant. But there is no suitable kidney and thus he was put on waiting list. We all know that kidney failure patients will have to undergo dialysis few times a day and hence his mobility is limited.

I felt so useless for not able to help him - the most I can do is to cheer him up. But he had gotten more quieter compared to last time.

He doesn't talk much. He doesn't express his feelings to me anymore.

I felt quite useless as a brother and cousin to him.

I will always be there for you.

Be strong, my cousin.