EXO K MAMA 1st Mini Album

Recently, SM Town debuted a group called EXO. After looking at their several teasers at youtube, I couldn't help but to order their mini album through an online store.

After dying  and waiting several days, the mini album has finally arrived!

*Grabs, rushes upstairs, removes the packaging*

And here it is, comes with a tube containing the poster. The packaging is quite creative because if you look closer at the album packaging, there are patterns of pentagons and you can feel the 'texture' on the album packaging.

 The photobook.

Note: EXO consist of 12 members and divided into two sub groups namely EXO-K and EXO-M. EXO-K will mainly promote in Korea whereby EXO-M will promote in China. Both groups have the same album, song lists released at the same time but with different languages only.

Bread Story

Currently playing: Merry Chirstmas Mr. Lawrence - FYI by Utada Hikaru

 

Mom baked this whole wheat seed bread and it's super tasty even without peanut butter!

Inner Thoughts

Now playing: Smooth Criminal - Glee 

There are many thoughts going through my mind right now. I feel a bit depressed and regret for I have neither done many wonderful things nor achieve anything throughout my past years. It feels like some decisions I made are wrong. If I can rewind back time to 4 years ago, I would have...

• Take up music lessons - violin, piano, guitar etc.
• Give more attention to my peers and surroundings
  
• Study a bit hard
• Perform in school (coz' all I've done is giving crappy speech/announcements) 
• Enter commerce stream class instead of science stream  class
  
• Withdraw from Prefects Committee Members
• Enter National Service
• On diet *blushed*
  
• Withdraw myself from Sixth Form (or enter commerce stream instead science)
• Give more love

It feels like I have missed a lot of chances to do stuffs that really matters in life. Did I regret? Part of me say yes, however, part of me say no. It feels like everything happens for a reason when I look back my past actions. I still feel like myself clinging to the high-school me, not the current me. I really hope I can make a big change this year.

I was watching Glee just now when suddenly one of the character's dialogues give me an aha-moment. Quinn was giving advice to Rachel which sounded like that - You can't change your past. But you can let go and start your future. I did stop and ponder a while at that moment...

This afternoon, I decided to take out my watercolours set and drew a leaf. It seems like my drawing skills have downgraded a lot...

 I mixed green with pale yellow to get light green washy-foamy effect first.

Then, I started to add a darker green near the midrib to give a so-called freshly-plucked-leaf-effect look.

Lastly, I add a slightly black colour to give a darkening effect. Voila! But I did spoiled the look when I tried to highlight the midrib with white outline cause's my hands was literally shaking.

Talent

I think that talents are very important. Growing up until now, I think I am kinda 'talentless'. Looking at people younger than me who perform on stage, I am in awe, at the same time, green with envy too. Drawing, singing, dancing, playing instrumentals and etc, I wish to master one of them one day.

I remember when I was 12 years old, I pleaded mom to allow me to enter art class but for no reason, she forbid me to do so. So again, I pleaded her to let me join art class at 15 years old but all my efforts were to no avail. At 16, I decided to try again but to apply for music lessons but then again, it was a big no.

Then again, at my 20 years old of my age, I decided I want to take up violin lessons but then I already realised... that I am too old to do so. Talents are to be nurtured at a very young age but I am already 20 years old this year. I feel kinda regret for not holding my will strong. I feel horrible growing up with no talents. All I can do throughout my student life was to keep studying and pursuing education. I can only dream to be one but never able to be one.

If you have talents or want to pursue something, do not limit yourself by saying no or feeling unsure or insecure. Do what you want to do, grab the chance which comes knocking at your door and don't wait.

20 years old of age, how time flies.