Inner Thoughts

Now playing: Smooth Criminal - Glee 

There are many thoughts going through my mind right now. I feel a bit depressed and regret for I have neither done many wonderful things nor achieve anything throughout my past years. It feels like some decisions I made are wrong. If I can rewind back time to 4 years ago, I would have...

• Take up music lessons - violin, piano, guitar etc.
• Give more attention to my peers and surroundings
  
• Study a bit hard
• Perform in school (coz' all I've done is giving crappy speech/announcements) 
• Enter commerce stream class instead of science stream  class
  
• Withdraw from Prefects Committee Members
• Enter National Service
• On diet *blushed*
  
• Withdraw myself from Sixth Form (or enter commerce stream instead science)
• Give more love

It feels like I have missed a lot of chances to do stuffs that really matters in life. Did I regret? Part of me say yes, however, part of me say no. It feels like everything happens for a reason when I look back my past actions. I still feel like myself clinging to the high-school me, not the current me. I really hope I can make a big change this year.

I was watching Glee just now when suddenly one of the character's dialogues give me an aha-moment. Quinn was giving advice to Rachel which sounded like that - You can't change your past. But you can let go and start your future. I did stop and ponder a while at that moment...

This afternoon, I decided to take out my watercolours set and drew a leaf. It seems like my drawing skills have downgraded a lot...

 I mixed green with pale yellow to get light green washy-foamy effect first.

Then, I started to add a darker green near the midrib to give a so-called freshly-plucked-leaf-effect look.

Lastly, I add a slightly black colour to give a darkening effect. Voila! But I did spoiled the look when I tried to highlight the midrib with white outline cause's my hands was literally shaking.