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I have finally completed all four assignments! Thank you Lord for granting me so many blessings throughout this process. I know I can do better but please Lord, please give me good marks. Amen! =)

SO after all the lessons skipping and burning midnight oil in rushing the assignments, I really need to get myself back on track. I try not to skip any lectures amidst of doing assignments because I know time management is an important factor here. Somehow I did slack a bit but this whole 'assignment' thing, dreadful in a way, has given me more experience in handling time, pressure and personal issues. Thank you Lord for putting me in such a challenging test and You have given me a great lesson.

Went to MPH today and used the book vouchers to invest in something good. So here's a picture my haul. I am still wondering what should I do with my last RM 50 book voucher. Maybe I should invest it for a good bible - to celebrate the joy of finishing all the law assignments! 

 

Of emotions and trust issues

I think that one should learn how to control and guard his or her emotions and feelings well. Sometimes, it is crucial for one to remain calm and composed even at emergency times. I admire people with calmness in their minds because they give or spread out a sense of grace and charm that others don't have. They are also intelligent in a way that they can think before they speak or act.

Intelligent people are beautiful. They are strong and independent. They do not cling on others to achieve a certain goal or an aim because they already have, in mind, how to do it. They converse in a sense that they are able to portray maturity and reasonable points are made. Intelligent people, despite genders are, really beautiful. I am still training myself and wish to be that 'intelligent' person.

On the other side of coin, I also feel one should not easily pour out your emotions when no one out there will listen and appreciate your inner feelings. 

I am the type of person who am really guarded and don't easily trust a person. I feel that trust need to be earned by actions and words at the same time, not just a mere saying.

It might take years for me to get comfortable with someone and thus, I admit that I only have three friends that I can rely on in my life. Yes I am really closed up to myself who don't open up easily. 

Hence, people tend to get mistaken and assume that I am a cold type of person - the quiet and unpredictable. Well kind of I guess. I can, at times, be really open up to myself but I still place a certain limits on myself that certain stuffs should and should not be done at that time. 

I know I have many untold stories but slowly, they will unfold by themselves I believe, in faith.

I do not need many friends. I just need someone whom I can trust and talk with and to share my feelings. I need a friend whom I can sit with, feeling comfortable without awkwardness even when no words are spoken. It is hard to get such friend indeed. 

Gratitude

Dear Lord,
I have completed my third assignment. Almost near to my completion of all assignments - just one more to go.

Thank you for granting me your intelligence and wisdom amidst the time I was doing my assignment. I feel lost when attempting to answer the question but because of your blessing, at least I am able to understand and tackle it with my least understanding together with help from a few of my housemates.

Thank you for giving me peace and calmness in my heart as I do occasionally feel panic due to uncertainties when doing my assignment.

I may or may not do well but I have tried my best as a first year law student. I have done my research and studying and I pray that You will give me a satisfactory marks to lighten up the burden of scoring marks in my written paper final exam.

Thank you for I am able to pass up my assignment on time too.

I pray to you that I am able to finish my last assignment as soon as possible so that I am able to concentrate back to my studies. Please grant me more of your intelligence and also a good mindset so that I am able to write good essays with least errors in it.

Thank you for I am able to get in touch with some of my high school best friends too and able to share my feelings with them. I feel good after talking with them. I pray to God so that you will shower them with blessings and excel in their educations too.

I skipped my two hours lecture so that I can give time for myself to rest. I hope I did not miss a lot of thing and also I prayed I am able to get enough rest.

Lord, without you I am nothing. I hope You can hear my cry and my inner silence and please let me feel your presence around me. Please guide me and protect me all the time. Amen.

My tutors

I really quite admire my criminal law tutor. Okay, I admit the way she uses her words can be a bit pushy and on the first day I hardly able to interpret what she is trying to say. But slowly, I started to discover my criminal law tutor is of a very dedicated person and I started to like her way of teaching. Same goes to my contract tutor too, she's very charismatic that even boys feel a bit intimidated by her! I wish to be like her. *blushes*

Okay, so back to my crime tutor, she told us an hour and thirty minutes of tutorial won't enough to cover as many questions/topics as she wants. It's true. In fact, I admire her efforts of using her time in trying to give extra informations on arguments and training us into thinking out of the box when tackling an essay question - the creative way of exerting an argument. As a first year law student where every law concepts is still my first approach, I try to absorb anything that I can. My hand feel numb jotting down all the details given by her. It is a very fruitful tutor session.

On the other side of coin, I am kinda sad when she is trying to extend her teaching time but the class eventually tells her to stop and wanting to go back. To her dismay, she rushes her tutorials and dismisses the class in favour of some lazy asses. I can see she is quite disappointed too. I wish to sit there longer and learn more, do more and write more. Perhaps everyone is tired so that's why but the tutor is tired too!

Or maybe I am feeling too energetic today? Hmmm...